sometimes i dont know what i want.
other times i know what i want. and i want it so bad it makes me sick. and i dont think ill ever get it, or that i even should get it. and thats nauseating too.
i wish i was better at taking pictures with a 35mm. i wish they didnt discontinue polaroid. i wish my pictures were in magazines. i wish i cared enough to do something about it.
i wish God told moses at least what general direction to travel in. i wish God would tell me which general direction to go.
i wish i was so humble i could die for you. or Him. or her.
i wish alot of things. and i hate satan, because hes a sly bastard.
i like that angels encamp around those who fear the Lord. lets hope im fearin the Lord enough right now.
man, today sucked. but yesterday sucked worse. or not. im not sure.
i wish i was a dog. raja has it so easy. i wonder if she wishes she was a human sometimes. i hope i see her in heaven. man, i just want some tattoos. Lord knows i cant sleep right now.
i feel like ive been running and going nowhere and ive taken the time to stop tonight, and its very disalamarming whatever that means. im uncomfortable. i want to crawl out of my skin and go somewhere else and do something else and i have no idea what.
its like when you cant decide on a song, so you stop the music, and its so quiet it breaks your heart and you start crying. and you arent menstruating so theres no valid explanation for whats going on.
its one of those days. its so freaking quiet and i hate it so much.

goodnight probably.