a God without an expiration date.

sometimes i buy into the lie that something- or someone- other than Christ can satisfy me. what a disgusting thought.
everything else fails. everyone else fails. people get bored and leave, or get tired of hearing the same things over and over again. people break their promises. flowers wither, and flames run out. food has an expiration date. even some relationships have an expiration date. most do, actually.
but our God, our God- He lasts forever. He doesnt wither, He doesnt fade, He has never let me down, or walked away from me. He has never been unfaithful, He has never turned his back, been uninterested, or had something better to do. God doesnt "get to know" me, He knows more no more or less than He did on the day i was born- or the day He created the world. the world is no less young than it was when He breathed life into it. He will never love me more, or less than He does in this moment. His love doesnt depend on my reaction or lack there of. it isnt hindered by His selfish desires, it isnt tamed by my religious jargon or close-minded attitude. His love is unchanging. almost like its steadfast or something?

the steadfast love of the Lord endures.
you can say that again.

i have always full-heartedly believed that I was created solely to worship Him, to give Him glory- to know and love and obey Him. i know that i don't have a God-shaped hole in me- that only could be filled by Him. i used to believe that when i was younger. but now i know that i am a God shaped hole. no aspect of my life has meaning or substance without Him. nothing is worth doing if it is not with Him, or for Him. air is useless if not breathed in His name.
so why then, do i walk away? why am i prone to wander?
Christ alone can satisfy, and i know that firsthand. primarily because He is my only option.
i hate that i can testify more to the fact that i know that the world cant satisfy me than knowing that Christ does.
i want to know His satisfaction. i want to feel it in my gut. i want to walk in it, breathe it in. i bet that the more that happens, the less i will turn to things that don't satisfy.

"if you will only love Me, you will do what i say."
the first step isnt obedience. love draws us to obedience.
the first step isnt 'getting rid' of my sin, its being satisfied in Him.
right?