it's not that i haven't had anything to say, i just haven't wanted to say it.

i promised myself i wouldn't never delete something i've written, so i won't. i just ask that if you've read my last post, dismiss it. and if you haven't ignore it.
Christ has brought me out of that place of desperation, at least for now.
and He has used some amazing people to do it. to name a few, taylor, cara, xander, gage, kristen, landon. all of which have been there when i needed them. thank you doesn't cut it.
but, God is faithful. He never left me or abandoned me. He was there the whole time, and He allowed me to feel that pain for a reason. He has been either numbing or healing me lately, i don't know which.

on a different note, i made a new friend. he doesn't wear socks with his toms, and hates christmas lights just as much as i do. glorious. he's been through what seems like a lot, but is very content, and very at peace. this is something i admire. long story short, we hung out for a long time. and i had such a nice time, it was a breath of fresh air. i think God knew i needed that. i think He did that on purpose. clever guy, He is.
oh another thing: he has an amazing voice. and when i say amazing, i mean moving. his music moved me. it made me want to pursue God, and find God, and love God, and love people. it made me feel like maybe there was some good left somewhere, and i wanted to find it.
i really enjoy my new friend and his glorious voice and his lengthy legs.
i hope we stay friends.



yes, i sure do.